Sunday, June 25, 2006

fear of the unknown


Tomorrow is the last day of my contract. It also marks my 11th month in China. It's been barely a year but I feel so much older. I think I've grown up in more ways than I ever expected myself capable of.

In a week's time, I'll be on my way to yet another journey. There's a part of me that is deathly scared of going out there trying to find another job. I have no idea what I'll find

This is familiar. This is safe. This is comfortable. Yet I know that if I stay I'll forever be thinking of all the other places that I wasn't able to experience living in. I have to go. There is really no choice but to go.



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9 comments:

  1. Papi :)June 25, 2006 at 5:12 AM

    carry yan... infinite possibilities :)

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  2. joni chamJune 25, 2006 at 6:01 AM

    What the... This is supposed to be a draft! I guess I clicked the wrong button...

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  3. jona cham-lagoJune 25, 2006 at 8:36 AM

    the fear is part of the excitement nuni. i'm a little bit jealous. i want an adventure. :)

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  4. joni chamJune 25, 2006 at 9:13 AM

    I still can't get over how this is supposed to be a draft! Notice how I stopped in midsentence. I haven't exhausted this topic yet! Aaaargh! I will have to blame it on my headmaster who suddenly wanted to treat us to dinner. Sigh.

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  5. jona cham-lagoJune 25, 2006 at 9:49 AM

    i did think that was weird.

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  6. Sachin GJune 25, 2006 at 10:47 AM

    Lycka till for exploring unknown.

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  7. Papi :)June 25, 2006 at 7:11 PM

    draft? stopping in midsentence? postmodern techniques yan lahat. basta banat na lang nang banat!

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  8. jona cham-lagoJune 25, 2006 at 8:56 PM

    or you can smirk and look at it this way. hehe.

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  9. joni chamJune 26, 2006 at 12:59 AM

    Hahaha! Yeah, that's one way of looking at it. I'm a postmodernist! :p

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