Monday, November 27, 2006

On Being Issueless


I've run out of angst. That's what it is. Life has become so uncomplicated. There's nothing to whine about except maybe the heat. Or the traffic. Or how expensive everything is. I don't know, maybe this is what it means to be contented about life. It's a strange feeling, really. I'm not used to not being agitated about the fact that I'm currently unemployed. Or sad that I don't have a boyfriend. Then again maybe I haven't given myself enough time to find things to complain about yet.

Not that I'm happy. Nor that I'm unhappy. I'm just *shrugs shoulders* issueless. And it's been a long time since I last felt this way. Actually, I'm not even sure if I'd ever felt this way. I had always ALWAYS had issues. When I didn't, I invented some. And I must have gotten so good at it that I almost always never noticed that most of my issues were mere illusions.

I do not know what brought about this odd feeling of peace. Should I attribute it to growing up and realizing the things that really matter and therefore not dwelling on the insignificant stuff? Or maybe I've toughened up just a bit too much and now have to look for tougher issues as well.

And this should be good for the thesis for isn't literature written in "moments of tranquility"? We'll find out soon enough, I guess.

I'll be honest
that I do have one little worry and that is I might become boring. But
then again why should it even matter?


Wait. I might still be on track... See how I've managed to make an issue out of not having issues?

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14 comments:

  1. jona cham-lagoNovember 27, 2006 at 5:21 AM

    i totally understand. *nods. i need my issues. i'm not very interesting without them.

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  2. joni chamNovember 27, 2006 at 5:27 AM

    Well, the thing is I do not feel the need for them. At least not at the moment. Maybe I would next week? It feels oddly nice though.

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  3. jona cham-lagoNovember 27, 2006 at 5:29 AM

    you're weird now. china ruined you.

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  4. oliver lordaeronNovember 27, 2006 at 8:29 AM

    a clean slate of mind.

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  5. ProminentMoth MothNovember 27, 2006 at 2:16 PM

    Jona: China doesn't ruin you.... it spoils you, like milk left out too long.

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  6. Carolyn SchnurNovember 27, 2006 at 2:39 PM

    Lack of issues is nice. It results in lack of drama. Which is even nicer. And it definitely helps you to sleep better! :)

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  7. danicar marianoNovember 27, 2006 at 2:53 PM

    hahaha. this reminds me of a calvin and hobbes comic strip. "Here i am all happy and content."

    next box: "But not euphoric."

    next box "and so i'm no longer happy and content. my days are ruined!!"

    next box: "i really have to stop thinking while i'm ahead."


    (JONA, are you hearing this!?!) hehehehe.

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  8. Papi :)November 27, 2006 at 5:49 PM

    "this should be good for the thesis for isn't literature written in 'moments of tranquility'?"

    or at least moments when you're not distracted so that you can concentrate. ayan the planets are aligning for you! go go na!! kaya mo yan!!

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  9. melanie casulNovember 28, 2006 at 2:05 AM

    don't want to rain on your parade... give yourself another week or so in manila, issues will come guaranteed. hehehe.

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  10. joni chamNovember 28, 2006 at 6:14 PM

    Melanie, naisip ko din yan e. I'll just enjoy it while it lasts... which means I have one more week. Two, maybe? Ehehehe...

    Exactly, Carolyn. The lesser the issues and drama, the better the sleep. The better the sleep, the nicer I get, which makes it better for everyone around me. See? Everyone wins!

    Cai, when are you going to give me a tarot reading to wake my issues up?

    Vince! Eto na, eto na, kinakaya na. Ang sweet mo naman *mahinang tulak. Salamat ah. Hehehe!

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  11. Sachin GNovember 28, 2006 at 9:55 PM

    Do you still have any doubts about it ?? Well, now you really are!! Posting pictures of irrelevant body parts is clear sign of that.................. LOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am gonna die if I dont stop laughing!!! hehehhee!!!

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  12. joni chamDecember 1, 2006 at 8:05 PM

    Sachin, I'll have you know that those irrelevant body parts may be irrelevant but they're still interesting. :p

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  13. Michael MaldoDecember 29, 2006 at 3:07 AM

    i really dunno your name so may i just call you miss issueless :P

    you may want to go deeper to whatever state you are in - if you happen to like books - i recommend you looking for

    the power of now - by ekchart tolle

    but then again am happy for you...

    in case you may want to keep in touch just message me thru ym knostika@yahoo.com

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  14. joni chamJanuary 1, 2007 at 2:01 AM

    Um, if you're willing to lend me the book I may find the time to read it. Mwehehe! I must admit that I'm also a bit wary of opening up long buried issues that I most probably am repressing. But then again, I think I will have to dig up some one way or another or else I won't be able to finish my book.

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