In less than three weeks, I will be unemployed again. I have started my countdown. Not surprisingly, it feels like the last few weeks during grade school or high school when you're raring for summer vacation but you still have to endure those unbearingly long weeks of school left. Very apt since I have treated this job more like a school from the very first day. Except this is ten times worse because it is presently happening. Anything in the past may be romanticized. The present can only feel longer, more constricted. And that is exactly how I feel: trapped and boxed in.
I try to find the positive in it. I have long trained myself to think that nothing at all is wasted in a writer's life, no matter how boring, painful, or worst of all, ordinary. At some still to be identified future time, these things will come in handy. And I did learn some new things, made some new friends, earned some money. All in all, I think it's not a waste of three months.
So now I am passively looking for a job. I want another run at the fulltime writing/revising of the novel, thus the "passive" description. I have not worked on it at all since the translation job started and hopefully, I have accumulated enough material to finally finish it. I really, really, really want to be done with it (*sobs). In the meantime, if you know of any freelance projects that may need writing and translating, send them my way. I still have to eat, you know.
im leaving my current job in 2 months... but i feel exactly the same! and i have a sneaking suspicion that since ive told my immediate boss about it, she has told management / HR who are now actively looking for my replacement. anyday now, they'll be kicking me out and saying sayonara! scary! hehehe
ReplyDeleteit sounds like bull but i believe this is really true.
ReplyDeleteMutya, can they just kick you out? I was actually guilty because they were already looking for another translator even before I told them that I was resigning. So they had to find two and they were already having a hard time before I made their lives worse. Fortunately, they are finally able to find two who will be starting soon! Yipee!
ReplyDeleteNuna, exactly. It's amazing how sometimes you're not even aware of it so it catches you off-guard when you realize that all those past seemingly worthless experiences are actually worth it.
not really... but who knows? theyve turned the AC full blast lately and im right under the vent in my area... i think its a sign hahahah
ReplyDeleteHahahaha! It IS a sign! They want you to catch pneumonia or something. *shakes head
ReplyDeleteJason Tan! May oras na ko uli makipag-collaborate sayo! And you still owe me a movie!
ReplyDeleteoOoOh. =) i will nuni. starting with mga writing gigs for this magazine called "tea party" my friend (si jasmine)'s friend is the esther. they're calling for literary submissions.
ReplyDeletesigh. nobody recognizes that writing is "real" work.
and yeah, being a "self-employed freelancer" was one of the best times of my life.
ako, i'm going to go busking when i get to the states. (i.e. sit on a corner and play the guitar, do portraits, and read fortune for money. hehehe. fun!)
Cai, that sounds like a plan! I wish I could do that too. Aren't you on a scholarship or something? Maybe I should look into pro-blogging. :p
ReplyDeleteyeah, i know. I am on scholarship but i still have to shoulder living expenses. =) yeah, i will send writing gigs your way pati. =)
ReplyDeleteYay! Thanks! And when I'm done with my MFA I'll start looking for scholarships that part of the world too.
ReplyDeleteHey, Joni, want to teach English to Europeans on the phone part-time? I wish I knew of writing gigs, though.
ReplyDeleteHugs!
I'll send you a PM, Olive. :D
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