Thursday, December 27, 2007

Thin and Thankful

I'm back to a hundred pounds. I weighed myself this morning before going to work because I thought I was gaining weight from all the holiday festivities. In short, I felt fat. I expected to be at 110, or 105 at least but no, I was a hairline away from the 100-pound mark. So that actually makes me 99.99999 pounds.

I am admittedly underweight, not exactly by choice but I'm not complaining either. My height is somewhere between 5'3" to 5'4", depending on how straight I stand.

My weight has always been a constant source of speculation among people that I've come across with. For instance, a college classmate once asked if I was anorexic. I thought she was joking. It turned out she used to be one and I was amused to meet the first ever anorexic person in my life. You see, eating disorders were just things that I read about. I couldn't help but be amused. Acquaintances have assumed that I do vigorous workouts or that I enjoy sports at least. They ask me for tips on losing weight. They do not understand that there was never much weight to lose to begin with. Still others just stare at me, then my plate, speechless at the huge mountain of rice for my lunch.

Know that I tried gaining weight at various stages in my growing up years. I was a stick, shapelessly straight from head to toe. Okay, there was a slight bulge in the tummy area. Not a pretty sight but I've since learned to hide it but that's a different story. I wanted to be voluptuous. Curvy. Full-figured. Believe it or not, I wanted to add more meat to my thighs and arms. When I was younger, I would look at my thighs pressed to the chair that I was sitting on and think they should look like that, ideally. Years later, friends would tell me how much they envy my skinny legs and arms so I had learned to think that they were alright after all. I would get complimented on for no other reason than because I was thin.

So I guess I'm lucky. Lucky to not have to starve myself to be thin. Lucky to never have to compute how many calories a slice of chocolate cake has. Lucky to have been born in this century when thinness almost equals attractiveness or even health. Yeah, I'm lucky to be thin. Sometimes I forget.

Friday, December 21, 2007

Random Christmasy Events




December is the time for get-togethers. Here are random (stolen) pictures of various get-togethers I attended, from the dinner with officemates to dinner with High School batchmates to the dinner with we screw crazies...

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Achi Janice's Wedding




So my eldest sister, aka Achi Janice, finally got married last Sunday. That was December 16, 2007. These are the unofficial pictures, taken mostly while we were preparing for the wedding. I'm not sure when the official ones are coming out.

The following pictures are taken mostly by Nuna, Iel, Bin-Bin and whoever else got hold of my camera.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

D's Band




It's not a party until someone takes off his clothes.

D's Band is the winner of the Battle of the Bands in our company Christmas party. Each band performed three songs. This is their first. For bookings, tell me and I'll ask them. Hahaha! Band members: Jay Casal (lead guitar), Alben Viernes (rhythm guitar), Dong Yap (bass guitar), Eman Pallos (drums), Abdi Duwa and RC Calimlim (vocals).

Again, I stole this video so shhh...

VHS Christmas Party '07




These are random pictures of our company's Christmas Party. I stole them from different sources. Please don't sue me.

Wednesday, December 12, 2007

- Victoria's Own -: Too Feminine - Aigner

http://victoriasown.blogspot.com/2006/05/too-feminine-aigner.html
I did my biggest splurge of the year last night. I was hoping to find gifts for my friends but I ended up buying myself a super-expensive one--keep in mind that I practically never buy anything over P300, espcially not for myself. Which is good because I can justify this purchase. And one more thing, it's going to be paid at 0% interest over a period of six (6) months.

I can never write a review good enough for a scent and I don't really have to because there's the Internet and Ms. Google anyway. So clickety-click!

I'm so bangoooo! ;)

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Friendster - 廓 dada 廓

http://profiles.friendster.com/35610413
I am posting this link for no other reason than because she quoted a part of my story, "Kawil" in her profile. No, I have no idea who she is. And no, I never denied being vain.

Monday, December 3, 2007

Garage Sale @ Bin-Bin's




To minimize clutter and earn money in the process, we had our garage sale last weekend. :)

Sunday, December 2, 2007

Dogeaters (A Play About the Philippines)

Rating:★★★
Category:Other
I can understand why Jessica Hagedorn's "Dogeaters," the novel and then the play, became a hit in the US. After all, anything coming from and about this side of the world must be exotic, right? The very title suggests a barbarism that has been accused of the Filipinos by their colonial masters through hundreds of years. A Fil-Am writer in New York writing about the Philippines... not only that but the Philippines at its most controversial and interesting time. It definitely has all the ingredients of a hit. That's for the American market. When writing about a group of people, it only follows that that group of people will be the hardest to please. And I am not pleased.

Asked if it was good by a friend, I could only muster a non-committal, "It was ok. It was not spectacularly good but it was ok." Pressed for more by the question, "Will you recommend it?" I answered, "Only if you have nothing to do. It's not a complete waste of money and time naman. But it's not something to really rave about. Go and watch 'Avenue Q' na lang." But one can only write so much in a text message so I felt compelled to write this review.

From the point of view of a Pinoy audience as myself, the play is soulless at best. Uninspiring. Clinical. Cold. Just some of the words that come to mind at the moment. I am not moved in any way. Not once in the more or less two hours of sitting in the dark theater am I transported back to the Martial Law era, when the play is supposedly set. I cannot sympathize with the characters. Any characters. They remain to be actors playing out roles for me onstage. I do not feel anger, hurt, shame nor pride. I do not feel. Period.

And don't get me wrong, the acting is quite good.

So what went wrong?

-The material is huge: the scope too wide, the story too thin. Logically, one will not be able to find anything wrong with the story. Everything is probable. Historical, even. But the depth of each life's story is inevitably sacrificed. What's more is that this play attempts to tell a nation's story.

-The problem of language. Perhaps it is practical to have it in English. It is, after all, originally a novel in English for the American audience, and then a play staged in Broadway. Watching it in Manila, however, makes it a bit difficult to believe that a junkie who lives in the slums of Tondo would talk to his uncle-pimp in English. Sure, they compensate by having a Filipino accent. Err, unfortunately, it does still ring false to a Pinoy's ear, just as the story itself carries with it a certain sense of detachment.

-I do not know how long and how extensive a research was done for this story but perhaps Hagedorn should be writing about the Fil-Am experience instead. Maybe then there could be some truth to the emotions in her story and it would not feel as clinical. It does not seem as if the story has any clear and deep understanding of a Pinoy's sensibilities at all. It claims to be a play about the Philippines and yet it does not feel Pinoy.

I cannot help but compare the play to "Avenue Q" because it was the last I watched before "Dogeaters" and I watched it in the same venue. "Avenue Q" had no pretensions. It simply is a story about a confused young man eager to know what life is all about as he searches for his purpose in life. It's about this one man who realizes how inadequate his college degree is, how immature and scared he is when it comes to love and commitment, how the internet is for porn...

And that's where "Dogeaters" ultimately fails. It attempts to tell so much and yet everything comes out as two-dimensional. It's soulless! *wails.

Monday, November 26, 2007

Tagaytay Trip with HS BFFs ;)




So finally, our Tagaytay day trip pushed through. Amidst warnings of a super-typhoon, we felt that it was now or never. We had been planning this trip for about a month already so devil be damned we just went ahead and drove all the way to Tagaytay for Vroomy's (Anna's car) break-in. Fortunately, it did not rain at all.

We spent Friday night at Virge's new place, talking and singing ourselves to death. We finally went to bed at 2am. However, being in bed and actually sleeping are two different things. Somehow we could not stop talking. The next morning, we hauled our sleepy asses into Vroomy for the three-hour drive to Sonya's Garden and stuffed our faces with salad and pasta. And took pictures. Lots.

To cap the day, we went to see "Enchanted" when we got back to Manila. I thankfully did not fall asleep. (I have a history of falling asleep when watching movies.)

*pictures are from Honey's and my cameras

Tuesday, November 20, 2007

Notebook Madness

I have, at any given moment, at least three unused notebooks of different sizes, thickness, paper quality, etc. in my possession. At least. I'm pretty sure I have more. The point is, I definitely do not need another one.

But I want it.

It's not even a notebook of any remarkable quality. It's as ordinary as can be: lined, of average size (maybe a bit smaller), of average thickness (maybe a bit thicker). "A normal notebook," in fact, was how I described it to a friend while trying to convince her to have coffee or tea with me.

So it is nothing but pure madness. I have fallen prey into this marketing scheme that seeks nothing more than to make me part with my hard-earned money is what happened. And as with most obssessions, it leaves one helpless. It certainly does not help that I pass by the coffee shop going to and from work everyday.

Of course it is not that I lack excuses to hang out in this particular coffee shop. I get to have some alone time, for one. That is, of course, always good for the writing. Or if not, I get to hang out with friends (whom of course I've tricked into having coffee or tea so I could have one stamp more in my little card) and get to catch up on each other's lives. Besides I am working three different jobs. I deserve an occasional cup of coffee if that's what I want. And yes, that's what I want.

I am eight stamps away from the much coveted notebook. If you're in the area and would like to have coffee or tea, remember to give me a call. I just might be available.

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

My Christmas and Birthday Wishlist

So you won't have a hard time thinking of what to give me for Christmas and my birthday, I've very generously taken the time to compile a list of things that I want.

  • wi-fi card for laptop
  • portable vacuum cleaner, preferrably a Black and Decker Dustbuster
  • a pack of Sony rechargeable batteries (4 pcs.)
  • a comfortable pair of 1.5 wedge-heeled sandals
  • a bath towel (I know. Times are hard.)
  • Spanish lessons
  • Advanced Mandarin lessons
  • arnis training
  • disposable contact lenses
  • a haircut and hot oil combo
  • a body scrub
  • a full body massage
  • Olay Total Effects facial moisturizer
  • Body Shop liquid foundation # 6
  • perfume and/or cologne
  • a trip to Bohol/Boracay/Palawan/Sagada (You may suggest some other places. I'm very flexible.)
  • cash!

If you are interested in giving me any of the above items, please feel free to contact me so I could give you further details (shoe size, color, etc.). And I would love to hear your ideas, too. I do not mind, for example, receiving a laptop from you if that's what you really want to give me. And jewelry, for example, is always welcome. We can discuss about those issues at your convenience.

Merry Christmas! *big hug

Monday, November 12, 2007

'Tis the Season to Make Some Money!

Shameless Plug:

'Tis the season to try and earn a little more than usual because I'm sure your Christmas lists (just like mine) are getting longer by the hour. And because I'm super thoughtful, I'm helping some friends with their fundraising activities as well. Here's a list of money-making ventures you might want to help in by buying and/or spreading the word, or even participating in yourself:

  1. For cheap and almost-new finds, visit our Garage Sale in Alexandra Condos, Meralco Ave., Ortigas on Saturday, November 17. Everything must go so buy buy buy by the truckload!
  2. Why don't you make some money yourself? A friend of mine is looking for participants to a goodies bazaar in Market! Market! You get a stall for the entire month of December for only P15000. Interested? Send me a message.
  3. Save some money and still give your loved-ones cute little gifts come Christmas time. If you happen to be in the area please drop by Valle Verde 5, covered court and/or the Quezon City Sports Club (right across St. Luke's Medical Center along E. Rodriguez). They sell affordable kikay stuff perfect for your girlfriends.
  4. If Valle Verde and QC Sports Club is too far from you, you can also catch them at the World Trade Center from November 21-25.
  5. What's a celebration without alcohol? Check out my friend's wide wine selection here or see his site for other yummy treats!

Merry Christmas!

Friday, November 9, 2007

My New Work Station




Like I said, it's still a work-in-progress. It's a definite improvement from my old work station, which I used to share with another translator. Now I have this all to myself. And I'm loving it! :D

Thursday, November 8, 2007

Dong Bei Shui Jiao

Rating:★★★★★
Category:Restaurants
Cuisine: Chinese
Location:Binondo, Manila
One of the many things that I miss about China is the food. Because I stayed in three cities that are at least seven hours by train from each other for a minimum of two months each, I also had the fortune of tasting at least three different kinds of gastronomic delights. And because I stayed in TieLing the longest, I miss the food from the northeastern part the most.

Imagine my delight when I chanced upon a restaurant called Dong Bei Shui Jiao (Northeast Dumplings) in Binondo when I accompanied Akoh on one of her Divisoria trips. Because we didn't have time to stop then, I made a mental note to check out the place next time. And because I had, and still have, a very bad sense of direction, it took quite some time before I was able to find it again, still with Akoh's help.

We bought a few uncooked orders to be taken home for dinner. I was instantly hooked. Dumplings are not very popular in the Philippines. Our Chinese food is usually limited to the food in the Southern parts of China, Taiwan and Hong Kong. I did not even know how important dumplings were in the Chinese culture if I had not gone to the north.

It was on our second visit when Akoh and I decided to stay there to eat when I read the article that the couple who owns the place are from Shenyang. Shenyang is about an hour away from TieLing! They're authentic Northeastern people! No wonder their dumplings are so good! I chatted with the wife for a while, finding out they've been in Manila for about three years and how it's not easy to get used to the heat. But then now they can't seem to stand the cold in LiaoNing. That was funny. I used to always complain about the climate too.

But the point of this review is for you to go and try their dumplings. There are two kinds available for dine-in customers: pork and chives. Both are great. You can get one order and have one-half of each. The sauce is to die for. Plus it's not expensive at all (this coming from a cheapskate).

While there are still a lot of Chinese food that I love (and I'm beginning to forget the names of!) that aren't available in Manila, at least I can scratch dumplings off my list.

How to get there: From Binondo Church, walk until the next street to the left. There should be a street sign: Oriente. That's the one with the Metrobank at the corner. Walk down that street until you can't go straight anymore. You'll see the yellow Dong Bei Shui Jiao sign to the right of a dress shop called YiFu. It's a tiny and unassuming place, as opposed to the commercialized feel of Tasty Dumplings. No, I haven't tried Tasty Dumplings yet but from the looks (and tastes) of Dong Bei, I don't think I would in the near future. I am THAT satisfied, more like ecstatic, of it.

Nuna's Scammed

Please take the time to read my sister's blog entry: http://thejonastory.multiply.com/journal/item/156/scammed

We're trying to let as many people as possible know about this. Yes, it happened personally to our family and we're hoping it won't happen to anyone else again.

Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Text Jokes = Different Punchline

Cast of characters:

Nuni, age 27

Akoh, age 60+, aunt of Nuni

One day about two months ago while Nuni was bumming in the house, she decided to share an old text joke with Akoh. She thought that this joke would be especially funny for her aunt because it involved a play of words between Filipino and Fukien Chinese. And because she's a cheapskate, she let Akoh read the text message from her phone instead of sending it to her.

The joke (cannot be translated, sorry):

Question: How do you say, "If this knife won't do, look for another knife," in Chinese?

Answer: CHIQUITO na bo huat, che PAQUITO.

Because of Akoh's bad eyesight, it took some time before she was able to read everything. It also took a few minutes of digesting and explaining and more digesting until she finally got the joke which resulted to quite a long time of steady laughing and thus difficulty in breathing.

Fastforward to yesterday: Because the joke was clearly successful, Nuni, who was in the office, sent Akoh a new text joke.

The joke:

Parrot: panget! Panget! Panget! (ugly! Ugly! Ugly!)

Babae: sige tawagin mo pa kong panget lulutuin kta. (Girl: Call me ugly again and I'll have you for lunch.)

Parrot: psst!

Babae: ano yun? (Girl: what is it?)

Parrot: alam mo na... (you know...)

Nuni imagined what was probably happening at home: Akoh asking Charly, 14, to read the message aloud to her. Wanna-be-actress Charly would have delivered the joke very well. Laughter all around, possibly resulting to difficulty in breathing again.

Instead Nuni got this message: Joni ano yung txt mo sa akin di ko maintindihan. Tawag ka na lang sa landline. (Joni what did you txt me i can't understand. call on the landline.)

Nuni scratched her head and groaned. She then sent this message: Joke lang yun. Joke! Ang hirap mo namang bigyan ng joke. (It was only a joke. A joke! It's hard to send you jokes.)

To which Akoh replied: la ha ha akala ko ano na ang nangyari sayo. (la ha ha i thought something happened to you.)

Friday, November 2, 2007

Halloween '07




If you're a member of the Cham clan, Halloween is an important event. The eve is spent preparing various food and games to bring to the cemetery. You go to sleep for a couple of hours then wake up at the crack of dawn for the big day.

This year, we were to leave the house at 4am. As expected, we left an hour later, with reminders that we'd have to make adjustments next year. You must understand that that's part of the ritual.

Thursday, October 25, 2007

The Promise

I was drifting off to sleep when my phone alerted me of a text message. Being one who cannot ignore a message once I knew it was there, I groped for my phone in the dark and was suddenly wide awake.

In all caps were these words WHERES UR NOVEL? from my thesis mentor.

I froze.

I tried to think.

Okay, breathe. It would make you think better if you breathe. In. Out. There you go.

So I remembered that sometime immediately after the Vigan trip, I sent The Great One a text message that I'm aiming to provide him a copy of my second draft on the first week of October. It is, of course you know this too, already the last week. Since he didn't reply to that message, a small silly part of my brain continued to hope that maybe he didn't get the message. You know how unreliable these telecom companies are.

So fast-forward to last night. I managed an "Oh no! Um, I'm still revising it, sir. I've decided on changing the pt of view, just as u suggested. Super major rewriting siya."

And because I wasn't sure if he was convinced, I tried again, "I promise to work on it and send u a copy asap. Hehe, promising writer. :)"

Yes, I attempted to be funny. That's what I do when caught in uncomfortable situations.

I didn't lie though. I really am rewriting the whole thing since I'm changing it from the first person to the third person point of view and good god, it's not easy. Then again, if I'm devoting more time to it, it'll probably be almost over by now. So you see where the guilt is coming from.

And don't get me wrong because I need that guilt or else I'd really just sleep the whole day. And I love it that The Great One cares enough to send me an all caps one-liner to ask about the novel. And that's really how he texts. Still rattles me every time: What? Is he shouting at me? Is he mad? Oh no! Oh no! After about a minute of the near-panic wherein I do the breathing exercises, I'd try to be funny. It's a cycle.

So now yes, off I go to change the I's to she's.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Happy!

This morning, I took an online quiz over at Facebook to determine what one word best describes me. Surprisingly, the test told me that I'm "happy." So maybe I am.

It must be right because just last night as I was walking to the terminal, there was an undeniable spring to my step while I hummed a toneless tune that I invented on the spot. I would have swayed my head from side to side but my little song number already had people looking at me funny. It was then that I realized that I had finally and completely gotten out of the dumps of my most recent heartbreak. Happy!

So I got home and was greeted with the new modem box that promises unlimited Internet access where we only had dial-up connection before! Yay! Happy!

Naturally I had to go online. I checked my multiply, my mail, my friendster, my facebook, my shelfari, my tagged, etc etc when a brilliant thought entered my mind: cyberstalk my semi-crush! Yay!

So I found out that he's in a long-term relationship. Seven-f*cking-years! *wails. Life is so unfair!!!

Then I got to work this morning. Well, well, the fact cannot be denied that I am now an office girl. Work starts when I time in at 9am and ends when I time out at 6pm. In between, I have an hour for lunch in which I have to time in and out again. In between 9am and lunch and lunch and 6pm, I get to have a fifteen-minute break each. Such is the reality of an office girl's life.

But guess what makes an ordinary office girl's life happy? Office supplies! I love office supplies! Today being a Wednesday, the day reserved for requesting the much sought after office supplies, I came out of the storage room heavy with a corkboard, colorful push pins and paper clips (in two different sizes, mind you!), a magazine holder, a stapler, a tube of glue, a tech pen, a roll of magic tape, a cutter, folders and envelopes, etc. So what if life is unfair? I have so many new things it's like the first day of school! It's like coming home from a shopping spree! Except they're free! Yay! Happy again!

So now I'm busy decorating my work area. That makes me happy. So yes, I must be happy considering how little it takes to make me one. If you don't mind, I'm gonna go put some cute colorful little post-its all over my work station now. After that, I'mma rearrange the magazine cut-outs on my new corkboard. *giggles

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

The Bridge Language Learning Solutions :: We'll take you there!

http://bridgelanguagecenter.com
I've mentioned quite a few times that I do parttime language teaching at The Bridge Language Center. It's being run by a group of young and talented individuals. You might want to check it out.

For inquiries, you may call 8563585.

Thursday, October 11, 2007

Top 20

And so I found out yesterday that a certain connoisseur on women is making monthly assessments on the female staff in the office. He has a top 20 list of the best-looking ladies, complete with comments and/or suggestions for the enhancement of the said ladies' beauty. The rules are strict. For one to be included in the exclusive list, one has to be single, presently employed in the company, and well, biologically female.

He was kind enough to show me the controversial list, which was prominently posted in his work station. While I was reading it, he nonchalantly informed me that I'd be included in his next list, which was due to be out tomorrow. Now years of feminist readings taught me to reject the very concept of objectifying women. The principled thing to do should have been to tear the list into shreds and file a complaint with the HR office.

I did reject his offer of putting me on his list but not for feminist reasons. I was afraid I wouldn't make it to the top 5. Or top 10 at least.

Now excuse me while I jump out of the window.

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Re-Connected to the Rest of the World!

Now that my new job grants me Internet access, albeit limited, I couldn't be happier. While it is true that I won't be able to download or upload pictures or music from and to Multiply, I am nevertheless overjoyed that it fulfills my blogging needs, which is the foremost reason for my Multiplying.

Which means I'll be more active in the blogging world again. Yay!

Oh, and since I can't access yahoo mail at work. You may send me messages through my work email: joni.cham@vhs.com.ph. I like receiving mails so go go go, email me!


UPDATE: I am no longer connected with VHS Philippines since February 2008. Instead, I may be reached at sanapakaininmoko@yahoo.com.

Busier Bee

I'm keeping myself busy: fulltime office work, language teaching at the Bridge around two nights per week, freelance writing for the UP Law Center, the novel. Whenever I find the time, I sit in Spanish and Chinese classes too. Next in line are piano and arnis lessons. My friend who teaches piano (and is willing to teach me for free!) is still juggling his schedule to accommodate me. (Nice, nice person. That's why I still believe that the world is populated by nice people.) And I'm still looking for an arnis training center in the Makati area, preferrably within walking distance from Rufino St. Holler if you know of any.

So there.

A part of me is giddy because I like being busy and feeling productive. Plus I get to do things that I've always planned on doing (like learning Spanish!).

Another part of me wants to sleep.

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

My Next CV Entry

In less than a week, I'll be starting fulltime work again. Guess where? In the last company that I worked for. Yup, the one that I resigned from not more than a couple of months ago. In yet another weird turn of events in my life, I was asked by my big boss, whom I never spoke with until I was asking him for his signature for my resignation clearance, to be his executive assistant. So I said yes.

Thus, no more afternoon naps starting Monday.

A part of me is excited to be starting a new job. People close to me can attest to my exciteable nature, and then the gradual losing of energy. And that's what the other part of me is afraid of. I am ningas-cogon with hair and clothes. As early as now, I am conditioning my mind to like my new job and to stay in it until the end of 2008, at least. I need to control my jobhopping tendency is what I'm saying.

So wish me luck. And lots of energy.

Friday, September 21, 2007

Vigan Trip




Bevz, Kate and I, all working on our respective theses/books, packed our bags and headed to Vigan one weekend for some peace and quiet. We stayed in a 200-year-old house and had the solitude we were looking for. We vowed to write all day and never speak to each other save for mealtimes. So we wrote some, walked around some, shopped some, chatted some, ate some, and took lots and lots of pictures!

I must say that I found a renewed sense of purpose because of the Vigan trip. I had been having a lot of self-doubts about my writing recently and the trip provided me with fresh perspectives. It was a reaffirmation of sorts for me and that was what I so badly needed. And so I was able to set these doubts aside and convinced myself that there was still hope for the novel.

It will be done.

Exhibit at WTC




This was the raket I had weeks ago where I lost my phone. For about a week, I was basically an interpreter for a Taiwanese businessman in an exhibit of tools, machines, metals, and other things that I don't normally think about. It was excruciating work. :p

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Like Wine in the River, Like Citizens of the World

This Harvard Law graduation speech was delivered months ago but I only got to read it today. I stumbled on this blog and could not help but repost it. I hope you like it as much as I did. *sniffles

(You might want to read these articles too.)


Like Wine in the River, Like Citizens of the World
Harvard Law School 2007 Student Commencement Address
Oscar Franklin Barcelona Tan (Philippines)

Delivered June 7, 2007, Langdell Hall

Dean Kagan, Vice-Dean Alford, professors, classmates, families, and friends. Let me first thank my family, who crossed twelve time zones to be with us. Let me thank my father, who was once a poor boy from our province of Negros Occidental in the Philippines. He lost his parents during his childhood, then moved to the capital and slept on my aunt's couch to study law at the University of the Philippines. I do not know if he dreamt then that he would one day watch his eldest son graduate from Harvard Law School, but I want him to know that I love him and hope he is proud of me. Let me thank my law dean, Raul Pangalangan, who was like a second father to me in the University of the Philippines, and is fortunately present here as a visiting professor. I learned all I know about integrity and principle from these two men.

Let me also thank our tireless graduate program staff. Assistant Dean Jeanne Tai, Nancy Pinn, Heather Wallick, April Stockfleet, Curtis Morrow, Jane Fair Bestor, Chris Nepple, Valentina Perez, Ashley Smith, and Sarine Der Kaloustian: This year would not have been possible without you. But let me thank all of you in the Harvard Law community for truly making us feel part of it. I know I am part of it; I was featured in the Parody.

Not so long ago, I went to John Harvard's for the first time with the British, who began chittering in an alien language. I later discovered it was actually English – the real English. I complained I was not used to cold, but a Saudi Arabian reminded me that you can fry eggs on a sidewalk in Riyadh. An Italian gave me tips on women because Italian men are the world's greatest lovers, with the disclaimer that their style does not work on American women. A Malaysian was asked to explain the religious significance of the color of her hijab, or headscarf. She would answer: It had to match her blouse. And I learned more than I ever cared to about American culture: I spent a week in Jamaica with Andy Knopp and Mike Pykosz.

Soon, we found that great substance that unites any law school: alcohol. On New Year's Eve, a Belarusian handed me a glass of vodka, but scolded me when I began to sip it. Sipping, he emphasized, is not the Slavic way. I shared a Frenchman's champagne, a Peruvian's pisco sour, a Brazilian's caipirinha, a Mexican's tequila, and a Japanese's sake. And I learned how even weak American beer enlivens an evening when you drink it with the Irish.

As for me, I come from the Philippines, a former American colony best known for Imelda Marcos's shoe collection. I remember being a six-year old watching my parents walk out of our house to join the crowds gathering to depose the dictator Ferdinand Marcos and form human walls against tanks. I remember being a twenty-year old in a different crowd deposing a different but equally corrupt president.

It was liberating to hear how a Chilean danced with crowds in the streets when Pinochet was arrested. How a South Korean prosecutor proudly stated that his country has sent two former presidents to prison. How a Brazilian, when he was six years old, was taken by his father to see a million men clamor for direct elections in Rio de Janeiro. How a Bhutanese wants to help shape her constitution after her king voluntarily gave up absolute power.

Friends, my most uplifting thought this year has been that the more we learn about each other, the more we realize that we are all alike, and the more we inspire each other to realize our most heartfelt yearnings. My single most memorable moment here came when I met South African Justice Albie Sachs, left with only one arm after an assassination attempt during apartheid. My classmate stood up and said: "South Africa is the world's second most unequal country. I come from Brazil, the world's most unequal country, and I admire how the South African Constitutional Court has inspired the progress of human rights throughout the world."

A hundred and ten years ago, it was said here that law is defined by the bad man, who cares solely about how to avoid being thrown in jail. Apologies to Justice Oliver Wendell Holmes,* but our generation defines law by the good man. The German Constitution emphasizes human dignity, in a continuing repudiation of Nazism. The South African Constitution promises equality, in a continuing repudiation of apartheid. The Philippine Constitution, a continuing repudiation of the Marcos dictatorship, promises social justice and the Philippine ideal that "he who has less in life should have more in law." Even in the United States, the younger Fourteenth Amendment set the stage for the end of segregation.

Countless other developing countries in Asia and Africa have constitutionalized a broad array of socioeconomic and environmental rights. We have thus outgrown the concept of law as passive restraint. Rather, law is now aspiration, law is now the catalyst that seeks to realize the full human potential of billions of good men brought low only by poverty, bigotry, oppression, and conflict.

The good man's primacy is felt just as strongly in international law. Modern instruments, even those lacking binding force, have bolstered our concepts of rights, from economic rights to indigenous people's rights to the rights of the child. The vigor seen in today's expansive constitutions must find its way into these international challenges. How can rights to biodiversity be asserted given an intellectual property regime that allows Indian basmati rice to be patented in a key export market? How can rights to environment become reality given developing countries with large populations and meager resources? How must the right to labor of migrant workers be protected given their vulnerability to countless abuses?

At the least, law must enable nations to dialogue on equal terms. At present, for example, the Filipino people are indignant that a United States Marine appealing his conviction for rape is detained not in a Philippine jail, but in the United States embassy. My people cannot reconcile this affront with the fact that even after our big white brother Douglas MacArthur retreated from the Philippines, ** my country exhibited the fiercest resistance in the Pacific War.

I cannot deny that our generation's issues will be complex, but I can guarantee that they will never be abstract, not after having a classmate who was an Israeli army drill sergeant, nor after watching my Chinese and Taiwanese classmates celebrate the Chinese New Year together, nor after having a classmate chased by gunmen out of Afghanistan. In fact, when George W. Bush's speechwriter visited, my Iranian classmate introduced himself, "Hi, I'm from an Axis of Evil country." And when he was told that the speech made a distinction between the Iranian government and the Iranian people, he said thank you and replied, "When we call you the Great Satan, we also make a distinction between the American government and the American people."

This is how Harvard has changed us. We thank our beloved faculty for raising our thinking to a higher, broader level. But even the most powerful ideas demand passion to set them aflame. The passion we ignite today is fueled by a collage of vignettes that will remind us in this crucible of life that our peers in faraway lands face the same frustrations, the same nation building ordeals, the same sorrows, and ultimately, the same shared joys and triumphs.

How do a mere 700 change the world, even with overpriced Harvard diplomas? Before a battle in China's Spring and Autumn Period, the legendary King Gou Jian of Yue was presented with fine wine. He ordered his troops to stand beside a river, and poured the wine into it. He ordered them to drink from the river and share his gift. A bottle of wine cannot flavor a river, but the gesture so emboldened his army that they won a great victory. We of the Class of 2007 shall flavor this earth, whether we be vodka, champagne, pisco sour, caipirinha, tequila, sake, Irish stout, or Philippine lambanog.

Thus, my friends – and this includes our American classmates who will soon lead the world's lone superpower – let us transcend our individual nationalities and advance law as the law of the good man in the international order. In this, let us affirm that we are citizens of the world. Maraming salamat po, at mabuhay kayong lahat.*** Thank you and long live you all.


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* "The Path of the Law", Harvard Law Review, Volume 10, page 457, speech delivered in Boston in 1897. "You can see very plainly that a bad man has as much reason as a good one for wishing to avoid an encounter with the public force, and therefore you can see the practical importance of the distinction between morality and law. A man who cares nothing for an ethical rule which is believed and practised by his neighbors is likely nevertheless to care a good deal to avoid being made to pay money, and will want to keep out of jail if he can."

** President William Howard Taft referred to Filipinos as Americans' "little brown brothers" when the Philippines was an American colony.

*** Traditional Filipino closing, literally, "Thank you, sirs, and long live you all."

Saturday, September 1, 2007

Busy Bee

And I thought I'd have a lot of free time after I resigned from my fulltime job. Two weeks since I've become unemployed and my to-do list seems to be getting longer. Much, much longer. And now it's September!

My last day at work was a Saturday. I had a good rest the next couple of days, feeling I deserved to at least sleep two full days before I dove into my writing commitments. So after waking up from the two-day hibernation period, the next couple of days were spent working on the Electronic Evidence module. Emer informed me that my first paycheck was waiting for me at the office and my conscience dictated that I first work on an article or two before I brave the EDSA traffic and drag myself to UP for my sweet, sweet paycheck. So I did. I have gazillions of articles left to write but at least I've already started. There is an old Chinese proverb that goes, "好的开始就是成功的一半。(A good beginning is midway to success.)" It was storming the rest of the week so I had a great excuse for being cooped up at home, cleaning the dogs' cages in the afternoons (we wouldn't want the rainwater to go to waste, would we?) and working on the e-evidence at night.

And then I got a call from a friend looking for a translator for a Taiwanese businessman for an exhibit at the World Trade Center. Naturally, I couldn't pass up an offer of a few thousands for four days of interpreting work. Never mind that I was still far from fluent in both Mandarin and Fukien. The plan was do the translating job in the morning, write the e-evidence article at night. That, of course, did not happen. I was too exhausted by the time I got home each night that all I could do was get to bed and drift off to dreamland. I am now way behind schedule on my carefully laid out timeplan for the writing assignments. (Emer, I hope you're not reading this.) But the job was done, we sold our products, I got paid. All these after I lost my phone, which happened on my very first day on the job.

So I spent the entire week being ex-communicado, my world revolving in and around the World Trade Center with its P60-hotdog and P40-Coke in can. I had no time and energy to go scouting for new phones and besides, I'd get paid at the end of the week. The universe had already decided that the money I would earn would go to buying a phone, so it seemed.

I got home on Friday with the house all locked up and dark. It turned out that Akoh was rushed to the hospital due to dizziness. Naturally I was not informed because I did not have a phone. It was like being back in the old days when you get second-hand information all because there was no way of directly contacting you.

I went directly to the Chinese General Hospital after my last day at work to relieve Nuna from her post of bantay and stayed overnight until Akoh was discharged noon of the next day. I finally had time to get myself a new SIM but without a phone, I was still pretty much out of touch with the rest of the world.

I finally got a new (okay, a second-hand) phone last Wednesday and I'm still exploring all its mysterious features. It's a 3G! Although I haven't used that yet. I wonder whom I could use it for. Besides, I will have to make sure that I combed my hair at least before starting a phone conversation if I were to use that feature. But I've already transferred songs to it! Except I don't have an earphone yet so I pretty much have to share the music to everyone within hearing distance, which by the way, Iel doesn't mind at all. That kid's world is ruled by music and dance.

Promptly after I got my phone, my body realized that I'd run out of urgent things to do and slowly, s-l-o-w-l-y, started playing with a harmless cold. A simple cold, of course, never kills anyone so I went to the SSS office with Akoh on Thursday to process some papers for her Philhealth benefits. By lunch, it wasn't my cold that stopped us from going straight to the hospital to complete the day's mission but a bad case of dysmenorrhea. We went back home and saved the hospital trip for another day. The dysmenorrhea took up most of my world those couple of days that I hardly noticed my worsening cold until two days after when I was no longer in pain from my monthly torture.

So I now sniffle in self-pity. I have the voice of a frog while my body aches all over and is in bad need of a really good massage.

Oh! And I have to go to Makati tomorrow to meet with my old boss (who might become my future boss again. But more on that in an altogether different blog entry). I think what I need to do now is lie down and sleep.

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Crippled

When I said that I'm on semi-hibernation, the Universe must have taken it too seriously and willed the most used communication device in my life to disappear. For that was what happened. One moment my cellphone was there, the next it was gone. With it, I lost a calculator, a watch, an alarm clock, a radio, birthday reminders, phone and address book, notepad, not to mention my hand exercise machine. That is how crippling losing a cellphone is. My hands suddenly felt so empty, as if they didn't know what to do, as if they lost one of their fingers.

Needless to say, I'll be needing all of your contact details again. I'll be using the same number as before but as I don't have a phone yet, please email or PM them to me as soon as you read this. Hopefully, I would have my cellphone transplant by early next week.

Monday, August 20, 2007

Unbelievably Challenging

The biggest challenge about being unemployed is the discipline to stay unemployed. Let me clarify that. I have yet to finish the second draft of my novel and I vow to finish it in a month.  (The second draft, we have a long way to go until the final one.) Still, there’s always the temptation to find a job instead. And typically, finding a job is what a normal functional member of society is supposed to be doing in between jobs, thus I have to constantly remind myself that I am unemployed for a reason. I do have to find a job but it just has to wait a few months. There is of course that voice in my head still shouting, almost hysterically now, “Ayokong maging dukha!” making it even harder for me to not run frantically to the computer and start sending my resume to every other employer I can find. It’s no joke how I convince myself each day that jobs will be there even after I finish my degree and I need only to be patient so I can finally start looking for them soon.

The next biggest challenge about being unemployed is getting out of bed each morning.

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

My Last Few Days at Work




I took these photos during my last few days at the office. These are some of my favorite people at work. I wasn't able to take pictures of my boss Kathy (whom I really, really liked), Herbert (who loaned me a hundred bucks when I left my wallet at home), and Henry (who's funny and weird so I like him). Oh well. Here's to unemployment!

Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Cai's Despedida




Because I couldn't find an internet connection sooner, by the time I post this, Cai must be somewhere in San Francisco. Giddy with happiness, we hope. Here's one last look of our dear Cai in Manila.

Monday, August 6, 2007

Celluloid Obsessions - Ragnarok Online - "HOME VIDEO"

http://paolody.multiply.com/video/item/13
Because I'm a closet movie-star-wannabe and my sister works in production, I sometimes get bit roles in commercials or AVPs. Here's one of those. This was done maybe more than two years ago.

If you want to see me, then you are not allowed to blink.

Friday, August 3, 2007

Back in the Game

So that (scroll to bottom of page and read the last few comments) didn't go exactly as I hoped it would. I was depressed for a week, okay, more than a week, but I'm up and about again (at least most of the time) and shouting, forefinger up in the air and an expectant look on my face, "Next please!"

Please don't ask what happened because I'm not telling. (That makes you want to know more, doesn't it?)

Thursday, August 2, 2007

Unpublished Sagada Photos




It's been more than half a year after Artie, Daniel, Lolit, Maklet and I had our Sagada trip when I finally got copies of the pictures taken from their cameras. I was hanging out in their office one late afternoon and browsing through the pictures in their computer. "We were so happy!" I observed. That would have been okay but I had to continue and wondered out loud, "When will we ever be this happy again?" That made everyone sad. I'm contagious that way.

So here's Sagada again. (Previous Sagada pictures are here: http://sanapakaininmoko.multiply.com/photos/album/114)

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Another Shot at Unemployment

In less than three weeks, I will be unemployed again. I have started my countdown. Not surprisingly, it feels like the last few weeks during grade school or high school when you're raring for summer vacation but you still have to endure those unbearingly long weeks of school left.  Very apt since I have treated this job more like a school from the very first day. Except this is ten times worse because it is presently happening. Anything in the past may be romanticized. The present can only feel longer, more constricted. And that is exactly how I feel: trapped and boxed in.

I try to find the positive in it. I have long trained myself to think that nothing at all is wasted in a writer's life, no matter how boring, painful, or worst of all, ordinary. At some still to be identified future time, these things will come in handy. And I did learn some new things, made some new friends, earned some money. All in all, I think it's not a waste of three months.

So now I am passively looking for a job. I want another run at the fulltime writing/revising of the novel, thus the "passive" description. I have not worked on it at all since the translation job started and hopefully, I have accumulated enough material to finally finish it. I really, really, really want to be done with it (*sobs). In the meantime, if you know of any freelance projects that may need writing and translating, send them my way. I still have to eat, you know.

Monday, July 9, 2007

On My Need for Stories and Burning Time Cards

Consistent with my “Touch and Go Joni” moniker, I have printed my resignation letter and am set to file it on Friday. I’m afraid I’m too much of a gypsy to stay in one place for too long. I have to keep moving. But that’s an oversimplification.

There has always been something about my job that does not feel real. Maybe because since graduation, this is the first time that I find myself in an office environment, punching my times in and out. As the measure of my existence in the company, they count how many hours I stay in the office, regardless of the amount of work I’m doing. I have been reduced to an eight-hour entity, occasionally having to put in an additional couple, at times four, hours in a day lest I disappear from earth and never come back.

But I had grown tired of the sheer mathematicality of the whole thing. The words wish to spring forth from me. I no longer just want to have to write “main entrance,” “granite,” “foresta green” and “polished” all in a straight line, from one language to another. Is there a candy store right outside the main entrance? I would want to see the little girl peering into the display window, her face pressed close to the glass, mesmerized by the greenredyellowpinkbrown in a large jar in the corner. She would go home only after her eyes have had their fill of the colors of the candies, her mind have imagined the sweet slightly rough texture of the round objects in her mouth. 

I thought working with words, in two languages no less, would make me happy even for just a few months. But I realized before long that I needed to have them in my hands, shaping them into a reality that I can see in my head before my soul can be truly satisfied. I need the stories. And that’s how I know I’m cursed.

The utter frustration of having red granite for the pavement and not see a young boy of about fourteen sitting on it so he could have fifteen minutes all to himself before he goes home to a crowded house filled with siblings and parents forever in shouting matches has reached its limit. Perhaps he thinks about the new girl in school as he hugs his knees closer to his body. How she had looked at him and shyly smiled across the classroom that afternoon. Or perhaps he’s looking at the stars and wondering about the light years that it takes before the light reaches us.

I need the stories. I will have to look for them elsewhere. In the meantime, I wish I could burn that time card.

Thursday, July 5, 2007

I've Been Tagged: Seven Random Facts About Me

I've been tagged by Emer and Cai. Here are my Seven Random Facts About Myself:

1. When my throat itches, the corners of my mouth itch too. I would scratch them until they get sore so sometimes I go around with wounded mouth corners. No people, it's not from too much eating.

2. If you look closely, you will notice a small greenish dot between my eyes, closer to the right. My sister and I were tickling each other in bed while she was holding a newly sharpened Mongol pencil. Inevitably, I got stabbed. Quite surprisingly, it didn't hurt. I lifted my head and saw the pencil swinging from side to side while still stuck to my head. That made me cry. I was maybe seven or eight years old.

I think she was aiming for the eyes.

3. I tell stories in a super-loud voice, especially when I get excited. I am usually unaware of this until a friend would call my attention to it. And much as I try to keep my voice down, I would forget about it after less than a minute and have all of the passengers in the FX/jeepney/MRT know what happened to me that day.

4. I never graduated high school Chinese.

Most Chinese schools in the Philippines follow this format: regular classes in the morning (with subjects like Math, Science, English, Filipino, etc.), then Chinese classes in the afternoon (with whatever subjects they could come up with that were taught in Chinese). I failed Chinese Math (Geometry in Chinese!) and was thus required to attend summer classes to make up for it. I did not attend. I had to repeat 3rd year Chinese while I was a senior in English. Most fun Chinese class I had ever had.

5. I have posed nude for a friend's photography project in school. That was ten years ago and it was for art's sake. Enough said.

6. I am twenty-seven years old and I have yet to apply for a real driver's license. Maybe next month? We'll see.

7. I swear by tomato juice. I hate the taste but it makes my complexion glow and when you're vain, that's all that matters.

I'm tagging Jason Hinsley, Nick Wah, Jason Tan, Bevz Asenjo, Jing Racelis, Anna Cinco and Cheska Lim.

Saturday, June 23, 2007

An Employee Again

I do admit that my absence from the cyberworld for the past month or so is nothing short of unacceptable. I apologize and will try harder to entertain you with updates of my life. Yes, I’m talking to both of you.

True, I have once again joined the workforce. I got myself a job. I am paranoid. I get very worried when I’m not earning money, no matter how small. Never mind that I’m the most barat person I know. My friend Kate once described me as “economical” after I made sure one piece of tissue was enough to wipe my sopping wet face while she used three or four times more. Another friend simply said that I’m “Intsik.” This was after I expressed dismay at his having deleted the Globe promo message that would give us free McDo regular fries many years back. He offered to buy me large fries instead but of course that would totally defeat the purpose. I didn’t really want the fries but I’d eat them because they were there and they were free. I don’t know if that only made sense to me.

I live in perpetual fear of poverty and over and over in my head, I hear the old early-90s commercial with a young man shouting, voice breaking, “Ayoko nang maging dukha!” I don’t know where that fear stems from but it has always been present, lurking around in the shadows. And it comes out full-blown when I’m in between jobs.

Thus, despite still working on the novel, I decided to do something that would generate income. I made myself employed.

I am, at the moment, a fulltime translator in an architectural firm somewhere in Makati. The company’s clients are mostly from Mainland China, thus the need for translators. Let it be said that up until a few months ago, I never imagined myself translating professionally so this is somewhat of a fulfillment for me, more than anything.

At the risk of sounding ungrateful (which I am most definitely not), I will have to reveal that it is not exactly high-paying. This is where I assure you that you can still feed me anytime you feel like it because the job has actually only made me busier, not necessarily richer. If anything, I accepted it not for the pay (although the old fear is ever present and that was the very reason that I was compelled to have an income-generating job) but for what I’ll be learning from it (yes, cheesy as that sounds even to my own ears). Architecture is not exactly a field that I’m an expert on, even in English. But it’s always the challenge that makes things exciting.

Truth be told, next to Literature, I would probably rank Architecture as my favorite classical art. Dulce et utile at its best. Practicality and beauty put together, who wouldn't want that? And as a consequence of this new job, I will be giving “The Fountainhead” another chance at making itself interesting. I got to about a quarter of the book years ago. Let’s see how far I get this time.

And it may only be my optimism that’s making me think that I can juggle this job, my novel, the unending string of things that I had already committed myself to (that I had previously written about here), my cyber life and my social life. We’ll find out soon enough if that were at all possible. The social life I can afford to sacrifice. My friends have gotten used to my sudden moments of hibernation, only to reappear a few weeks/months later just before I embark on the “next project.” There is a reason I was called “Touch and Go Joni” back in college because I would drop by the tambayan just to say “hi!” and let everyone know that no, I have not yet fallen off the earth’s face, before I disappear to whatever appointment I got myself into.

Based on past experiences, I have reason to believe that it really is a seasonal phenomenon for me. I am of course most worried about the novel. At the moment, I’m experiencing another dry spell. Hopefully, I will be able to write more soon. When that time comes, I am more than ready to drop everything to heed my muse’s call. Hopefully, I will not have to become dukha before I finish writing it.

Akoh's Birthday




This post is long overdue. More than a month has already passed since Akoh's birthday but I hadn't had the time to update my site, as you've probably noticed.

We had spaghetti, ice cream, hotdogs on stick (with marshmallows!) and coke. What more could we ask?

Tuesday, May 29, 2007

Sadness is Liquid

Sadness is liquid. It is the sweat that oozes out of your pores, gleaming and smooth; the salty tears that eventually become too heavy for your eyes to hold, rolling down finally free; the blood that gushes out a few days each month, pungent and pure.

Sadness is liquid. The seeming weakness of it biding its time within the bodies' crevices, eager to rush out, maybe become one with the ocean of sadness that served as home millions of years ago.

Aren't we all walking liquids? Our skins nothing but flimsy wrappers that attempt to hold us all in so we don't end up a mess of a puddle on the floor. There are times when a drop manages to seep out, as from a wound. And then we drip a bit of ourselves, sadness released, acknowledged and shared with the rest of the weeping and bleeding creatures. And who knows where all these droplets go, if not trickling back to that primordial ocean? Evaporating into the air to fall back down again, staining clothes and sheets as meek reminders of our shared fluidity and sadness.

Sadness is liquid. Wouldn't it be oddly comforting to think of how lovers share a bit of their loneliness at each exchange of fluid? And why else do we wallow, drown in our sorrows? Rumi talks of Grief drinking from a cup of sorrow.

We are careful to release just a bit at a time. It is how we survive, the life force itself. To slit one's wrist is to release too much. And yet not releasing enough can poison one's soul so we cry a little and let go some. It is the only way.

*Inspired by Tin's entry

Saturday, May 19, 2007

Persian Dinner and Tarot Readings




One night, Cai, Dana, Jona and I met up. Jona and Dana had their haircut and because it took hours to finish and I had very little sleep the night before, I took a nap in the salon. By the time I woke up, they still weren't done. Sigh.

Anyway, after the haircut we headed over to the Persian restaurant of which I cannot remember the name. Then went home, minus Cai, for tarot reading sessions. Alvin was waiting at home and made us coffee. :D

Monday, May 7, 2007

Malling with the Kids




Sometimes while watching my cousins and nephew and niece, I get transported to the future and sort of imagine them remembering how they grew up together and all.

I'm weird.

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Friday, May 4, 2007

Reunions




About two weeks ago, I attended my batch's high school reunion. It had been 10 years since graduation, the perfect excuse to get together for dinner and late night chats.

The next day, my grandmother celebrated her 100th birthday. See if you can spot me among the sea of red.

Thursday, April 26, 2007

"Writing is Easier with Computers"



Nenet, 7 years old and is always teased for not knowing how
to read yet, came to my room to see what I was doing. I had my manuscript
beside me as I played pinball on my computer. He looked at the thick sheaf of
papers and asked, “Ikaw nagsulat nyan? (Did you write that?)” Proudly, I said,
“Oo, ako nagsulat lahat ng yan! (Yup, I wrote all of those!)” He then leafed
through the one hundred or so pages of the manuscript and said, “Ah, sa
computer. (Oh, you used the computer.)” Having an idea where the conversation
was headed, I looked at him suspiciously and said, “Sa computer ko sinulat, oo.
(I wrote it using the computer, yes.)” Quietly, as if talking to himself,
“Mabilis lang pag sa computer e. (It’s easy to write using the computer.)” I
knew more than to argue.





Why do writers never get the respect they deserve? Now let
me go hide in the corner until all you bullies have left.





Friday, April 13, 2007

Driving My Novel


12 April 2007





These days I divide my time between
practicing my driving and revising/rewriting my novel. And because I
am one of those people who like relating certain things in her life
to make them a coherent whole, I have been thinking about how the two
things are the same in concept.



For several mornings now, I would be
found in the driver’s seat, taming a wild green beast to abide by
my instructions. Go right, damn beast, and slowly, s—l—o—w—l—y
stop. There, there. My father tells me that it is all about control.
I should know where I’m going then learn to control the beast so it
could go where I will it.



I have long ago already diagnosed
myself with having a problem with my motor skills. This is the only
reason I could come up with for my eternal clumsiness: bumping into
inanimate objects, dropping glasses and things breakable, tripping on
my own feet. I never learned to dance. Any kind. I do not play any
sports despite my best efforts to try and live up to my “athletic
built.” I could never coordinate the arm movements with the leg.
Somehow I could focus on the arms and do it perfectly, or the legs
and again do it perfectly, but put them together and I’d be a
complete mess. In truth, I am just grateful that PE classes ended
years ago.



And so knowing all these things about
myself, I have mentally prepared myself for long and grueling hours
to train my arms and legs to work in coordination. It has to be done.
The beast has to be tamed and conquered for it to serve me. And I
will be served.



In the afternoon I sit in front of my
computer, taming words and images and thoughts and emotions. I will
them to listen and obey. They are beasts of my own doing and I have
to guide them to go slowly lest they hit something so precious that I
could not bring back to life. And so I have to be careful with words
as with cars.



Taming of words is something that I am
more used to. It is graceful dancing at best and trying not to trip
on one’s own feet at worst. It is making an effort to not be clumsy
in handling one’s characters in various situations lest they get
offended and all run away. It is being aware of what lacks in each
scene and how to go about filling it, just like driving is being
aware of all that is happening outside the comforts of the
air-conditioned car and how to go about responding to them.



It is ten years now since I first made
a vow that mine will be a writing life. I still bump into imaginary
objects more often than I care to remember, get stuck, break things
that shouldn’t be broken. I have not yet stopped learning the
maneuverings of words, putting them together so as not to come up
with a complete mess of a story. I have accepted that it will be a
life-long process. I will have to coordinate arms and legs and entire
lives of people who breathe and hurt and weep in my mind even as I
eat and sleep and weep in my own life. It is like feeling the
steering wheel in one’s hands again for the very first time every
time in every story. My novel feels like a journey that I started
with much excitement feeling its immense power tingling at my
fingertips, and yet that same power scares me with its very
potential. Its destination is still unsure until the last word has
been written. But I will get there.



It is perhaps no coincidence that I
should meet with my thesis mentor on the 9th of April,
Araw ng Kagitingan. I needed all the kagitingan I could muster to
finally discuss my most ambitious literary undertaking so far with
the man who would be the judge of its worthiness. This beast of a
novel that I have been wrestling with for some time now and still
won’t let me rest. After pointing out some inconsistencies, a
number of unclear matters, technical issues, my mentor answered most
of my questions with, “It’s up to you. It’s your story.” I
whined but I knew that I will have to do the taming myself even
before the questions were out of my mouth. He tells me I should know
where my story is headed. That’s the only way I can control the
beast and let it be what I will it. Everything is in my control,
after all, as long as I know in which direction to steer.




Tuesday, March 27, 2007

Short Term Plans


I did not meet the deadline I set for myself. I was supposed to give my mentor a copy of my manuscript last Saturday. Except I couldn't. Suddenly, there were so many things I wanted to add and revise and edit. So there's a new deadline. This week. That's a promise.

And while the novel is being scrutinized by The Great One, I will be working on a number of other projects not related to it:

1. coming up with a compilation of flash fiction that I discussed with Adam Mordo of The Man Blog.

2. conceptualizing a short film with Jason Tan (aka larryboy).

3. attending my Mandarin class every Sunday morning in Binondo.

4. learning how to drive c/o my dad.

5. starting to keep my eyes and ears and nose open for jobs. If you know of anything that you think might interest me, holler.

So so far, those are the plans.

EDIT: 6. organizing a speed dating event with long-time friends Anna and Dan. This will be exclusively for Fil-Chi's, at least for now, so if you're interested or know anyone who's interested, let me know.





Monday, March 26, 2007

Popol's Milo Moment




Popol is my cousin's son. He recently won a gold medal in a teakwondo competition. For some reason, I couldn't edit his gold-medal-winning fight so I had to settle for this one, which is during the elimination round.

He's the one in red armor.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Rant: Stupid People Should Not Be Made to Answer Phones



One of the many things on my list to learn in the next few
weeks is how to drive. It has actually been there for years but I just kept
putting it off. So finally, this morning, before I parked myself in front of
the computer for another round of writing/editing/fidgeting (you get the
picture), I took out the white pages, looked up “driving” and sure enough,
there were dozens of entries just waiting to help me be on my way to road
independence. I first called up Socialite, knowing at least two people who
studied there, and was quite pleased with their packages. They have a branch
along Rizal Ave.
which is not too far from where I live.





Before I decided to go with Socialite, I called another driving
school. This one is nearer my place and being lesser known, I figured they
might have cheaper rates. Here is our conversation:



JC: Mag-i-inquire lang tungkol sa driving lessons. (I’d like
to inquire about your driving lessons.)



Grace Driving Institute rep: Driving lessons?



JC: Opo, meron po ba? (Yes, do you offer that?)



GDI rep: Oo. San ka manggagaling? (Yes. Where are you coming
from?)



JC: Valenzuela. Bali
magkano? (How much are the lessons?)



GDI rep: P1800 ang 5 days. (P1800 for 5 days.)



JC: Ah. Ano pang ibang meron? (Are there others?)



GDI rep: Ha?



JC: Meron pa bang iba? 7 days? 10 days? 15? (Are there
others? 7 days? 10 days? 15?)



GDI rep (impatiently): Ano bang gusto mo? 5? 7? 10? (What do
you want? 5? 7? 10?)



JC: Pwede ko bang malaman yung presyo ng lahat? (Can I know
all of the prices?)



GDI rep (said curtly and fast): 5 days, P1800. 7, two-five.
Tapos, three-six. Ok?





 
Then she promptly hung up the phone. Needless to say, I was
very irritated. And this was right after I had a very pleasant talk with the
representative from Socialite who was giving me all the information even before
I got the questions out of my mouth, and was very polite in answering my
additional and not very usual queries. I was tempted to call back and give her
a piece of my mind but then I remembered that I’m a blogger, thus I possess
boundless power over stupid people of the world. What I really did was take out
my laptop and allow my irritation to flow through my fingers.





Minus one student for Grace Driving Institute. And because I’d
like to think that I’m influential to at least five people, and those five
people are influential to five people each… Ha! Do the math, people.





Beware of bloggers.







 
Novel page count: 132





Monday, March 12, 2007

Arrest Gloria




This is my first tibak event in years.

Basically, it's a concert/poetry reading that revolves around the topics of 1. unseating GMA, 2. calling for a peaceful and honest elections, and oh, 3. world peace. It gathers artists and cultural people alike for a night of words and music as we ponder on freedom and/or the lack of it.

It was fun, except I felt a bit cheated because I was waiting for Conrado de Quiros to speak, as promised, but noooo! No Conrado de Quiros onstage! Hmp. Oh well.

Socializing. Again.




Had lunch with my high school best friends, then dinner and a sort-of pool party with d'barkads. :)

Sunday, March 4, 2007

The Man Blog Celebraganza 2




So the man blog had another beerfest last Saturday night. As expected, the man-bloggers were hilariously funny and as politically incorrect as imaginably possible. So here are the man-bloggers (or sometimes referred to as "Joni's boylets" by some well-meaning friends).

Saturday, March 3, 2007

Exclusive, Never Before Seen Photos of... Baby Iel!




aka. Tababoy, Uod, Buybuy.

Lots and lots of Baby Iel!

Pups for sale!




We're selling pitbulls. P3,000. No papers. Contact me if you, or anyone you know, are interested: 0922-8829800.

Thursday, March 1, 2007

Tonight I Can Delete Messages





25 February 2007


Tonight I can delete messages.

It is only tonight, more than a year after LB and I broke
up, that I deleted all of his messages on my phone. We were together for almost
three years so those messages also cover the same span of time. They were
virtually useless. They crowded my inbox. They were not even true anymore.





In the beginning, I refused to delete those messages out of
the foolish hope that we could still get back together. We were good together.
We were happy. We were so in love. And didn’t those messages just prove how
much we loved each other? Surely, we would get back together. After months of
crying myself to sleep and dreaming up scenarios of running slow-mo into each
other’s arms, I started to entertain thoughts that maybe ours would not be the
kind of happy ending fairy tales were made of. Still, I kept them messages. Even
long, long after I stopped hoping we would get back together; long, long after
I knew there was no way we would get back together; long, long, long after I
realized we should never ever get
back together; the messages stayed in my inbox. I would delete what I deemed unimportant
messages from other contacts to have enough space for new ones. When I ran out
of friends’ messages to delete, I would, grudgingly, choose from his messages
and delete one or two that were the least sweet of the lot. Many still
remained.





Tonight, finally, I deleted each one of his messages.





I deleted them one by one. At first, I would open and read
the messages. Be sad for a few seconds then read the next one. After a while it
was just my thumbs doing all the work. There was a time when I thought I would
only delete them once I meet someone I really like, and would probably love. I
have not met anyone that fits the description.





But tonight I deleted them all.





Maybe I finally got tired of seeing “Message inbox almost
full” every time I would get a message. Maybe because I felt the need to
celebrate the spirit of Edsa and freedom in a more personal way. I don’t think
the real question is why I finally deleted the messages. I should have deleted
them a long time ago. They were the last pain that he was making me suffer. The
real question is why I kept them.





I kept them because I felt the need to be reminded that once
upon a time, I was loved.



Bagets Night




It was our almost-weekly movie marathon with d'barkads. For the front act, we had "High Fidelity" followed by the main feature, "Bagets," and finally the Korean gory movie, "Old Boy."

If you look at the pictures though, it would seem like all we did that night (and the next early morning) was eat... Which was not entirely wrong either.

Dreaming Death

22 February 2007


I Could Have Died Last Night. Twice. 

I took on the persona of a young boy in my first dream last
night. Or at least the first dream that I was aware of. A male adult, I don’t
know who, was behind me, guiding me as we flew—or fell—from a high place, most
probably a tall building. I was delighted at the sights all around me and was
even adjusting my goggles while hanging on to something, could be the adult’s
hand or arms, so as not to fall (which was weird because we were already
falling). My excitement at the feeling of flight quickly turned to panic when I
realized that we did not have a parachute and we were on our way down. Head
first. Fast. Just before I hit the ground, there was total darkness for a few
seconds. There was a part of me that was struggling to wake myself up. I finally
woke up to total darkness. I was lying on my stomach, facedown on my pillow. My
heart was beating fast and I was catching my breath.





Visions of relatives finding my dead body in the morning made
me afraid to fall asleep again. I lay awake for a long time, fighting off
sleep. I had had similar dreams in the past where it would feel like I was
about to die of something but this seems to be the first time wherein I was
anyone other than myself. I was a young boy of about 8 or 9. I had also woken
up several times before, having to catch my breath. I think I might have
stopped breathing for a few seconds.









Eventually, I fell asleep again. In the last dream that I
had before I woke up in the morning, I was living away from home in a small
house that I was sharing with a number of other people, families even. The
living condition did not feel very ideal although I cannot think of a specific
reason now. There was a feeling of mild chaos, maybe because of the many people
in the same house. An older woman visited me and was asking about my condition,
clearly concerned. I don’t think I know the woman in real life. In the dream,
she did not seem to be a relative although someone familiar to the family. She seemed
to be from the same “community” from where I came from. I cannot explain what I
meant by that, except that she might have been a close neighbor or a family
friend. We were in the living room. She was convincing me of how much better I
would feel if I did go back home. She was asking me why I didn’t just go back
where life was more comfortable. She mentioned how “there are no squatters back
home.” I don’t know what exactly that had to do with anything. In the dream, I
had to think whether I was back in China
but it was clearly somewhere in Manila.
Finally I asked her, “Kamusta si Amah? (How is Amah?),” suddenly feeling such a
deep longing for my Amah. She shrugged and answered, “Ayun, buhay siya. (She’s
alive.)” I then felt like going home just to be able to be with Amah again.
Then I woke up, still filled with longing and sadness, and realized that Amah
had been dead for 17 years.

Novel Page Count: 129

Saturday, February 24, 2007

Delight in Possibilities



There is something about the
year 2007 that makes me optimistic. True, the start of every year brings (or at
least is supposed to bring) a refreshed feeling of shedding off all that was
detested in the past year, waking up with all the promises of getting to start
anew. It allows a person the hope that the new year will also be a start of
something good, something better than the last, something grand and pivotal for
one’s life. If anything, it gives us the excuse to try our damned best to look
forward, forgive ourselves of past mistakes and be able to delight in the
possibilities of the future.





And then you reach a certain
age and realize that it’s all an illusion. What’s the big deal about new years?
It happens every year anyway. It’s just another day and no amount of
polka-dotted clothes and coin-jingling can make it more important than any
other day of the year. In fact, it’s to be feared because it signals another
year added to your age while everything else remains the same, if not a change
for the worse, in your life.









It’s very much like the first
day of school. You go to school excitedly with your new bag, almost new shoes,
maybe new socks, possibly a new hairstyle and (if you’re lucky and have
outgrown last year’s uniforms) new uniforms (probably a size or two too big for
you so you can still use it until you graduate). You meet some new classmates and
mostly old ones who have their own sets of new things that are a lot better
than yours (mostly because theirs really are
new) then you start feeling low and hope that nobody notices the hand-me-down
textbooks from your elder siblings. Nevertheless you make the most out of it
with all your notebooks wrapped in plastic cover, fragrant and creaseless in
their newness. The sight of the long newly sharpened pencils and perfumed and
colorful eraser is enough to make you want to do well in school and end the
year on the top honors list. So you promise yourself that and listen intently
as the teacher introduces herself and the class and you make a mental note of never
yawning in class because she hates students yawning while she’s lecturing. And
you’re raring to start taking notes in the best penmanship you can muster but
then somewhere along the school year you forget all of these promises and your
notebooks are filled with scribbles and your now-not-so-new bag is sticky
inside because of the juice that leaked when you brought your baon one time. Not
to mention that all your notebooks are permanently orange-stained and the lines
smudged at the edges after the juice has dried. And you can’t find your dirty
nauseating eraser so you now borrow from your seatmate every time you misspell
words, which is often. And you wish the school year ends. Fast.

But there is something in the
year 2007 that makes me more hopeful than usual. It could very well turn out to
be one of those boring years where nothing significant stands out. I could just
be waiting for it to end by the time September rolls in. Or earlier. But maybe
one also comes at a certain age when she learns to appreciate the unknown and accept
that erasers will get lost eventually but all those notes she took still count
for something. Perhaps it has something to do with all the astrologers (both
Western and Eastern) predicting good fortune for me (a Capricorn and a sheep,
monkeys are lucky too so even if I turn out to be one, ha! Still safe!) this
year. Maybe because I am finally working on my novel, a dream I have had since
the beginning of time, and thus the possibility to finally have a book
published is within reach. Or it could just be that I’ve grown tired of
cynicism and have decided to be happy and positive for a change.





It’s been two months since
the year started. At the end of 2007, I’ll reread this entry and either be
sorely disappointed or smile at a promise granted.





Novel page count: 118.






Sunday, February 18, 2007

Meeting Friends, Old and New




If I'm not locked in a room writing, or in front of the computer catching up on my cyberlife, I'm usually out with friends learning the fine art of socializing.

Dateless on Valentine's




Because I was dateless on Valentine's (and who the hell cares about the day anyway it's just an over-hyped commercialized day when traffic is ten million times worse and yes I'm bitter), I did the next best thing.... I attended my little cousins' school's foundation day celebration.

And that's my baby on top of the pyramid!

Friday, February 9, 2007

My Take on Issues of National Concern or Ranting on a National Level or Thought Bits on a Lazy Day



There was a time, about a decade but what feels like several
lifetimes ago, when one needed only turn on a faucet and water came out of it.
In our barangay in Gen. T. de Leon, Valenzuela
City
, water faucets are
mere ornaments, a reminder of something that used to have a specific
function—that of bringing water into our homes just like in most civilized
places. Gone were the days when residents could shower in their bathrooms. Now,
we have to wait for rain to enjoy droplets of water falling on our faces. Somehow,
our local officials must have a very romantic notion of wishing wells and maybe
even doing the laundry beside a stream, for why else would the water problem
never have been addressed through all of these years? I have no problems with
mayors seeking adult fun on the internet as long as my needs as a citizen are being met—no I’m not talking about my needs in the adult fun department but
a more basic need—that of clean running water in my bathroom when I want it and
when I need it. Is that too much to ask? In the coming elections, I will be on
the lookout for the candidate who will be able to assure me of providing my
basic needs. See how low maintenance I am? Basic needs! That’s all I’m asking!
Jeezus! (No, this is not on the national level but think of it this way: if it happened to us, it could happen to you too...)



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What is Benjamin Abalos still doing in the COMELEC? Hasn’t
he proven enough of his incompetence in the previous elections? But then
perhaps it is precisely his incompetence that enables him to stay as the
COMELEC chair.

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On a similar note, what’s the point of having elections after the "hello garci" incident?



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Richard Gomez wants to run for senator. Hahahahahahaha!



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Question: If a Filipino soldier/corporal/whatever were
convicted of rape in the US,
would he be under the custody of the Philippine Embassy in the US?



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Gretchen Barretto should never open her mouth. There are
times when I would like to submerge myself in the illusion of absolute beauty.
The illusion shatters once she starts talking.





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Finally, an update on the novel. 100 pages and counting. No
nosebleeds, but I'm going crazy. Wait, I already am
crazy. I’m going crazier. I'm hoping to be done with my first draft by mid-March. What, are you telling me the whole nation is not at all interested in my progress with the novel -writing?